No Editing Allowed

I sit here in my basement office working away at client documents. I have a set of Questions and Answers and a press release to do for one client, and a press release to write for a pro bono thing I do. I'm telling myself that if I can get the paying client work done, I have permission to work on the novel that I have jumped in to.

But every time I start to type in another Q or fill in the A, I keep coming back to questions about this new project. I'm worried about structural issues - I want it to seem like it's coming at a person from various sides and disjointed...frankly, I want it to replicate the thoughts that race through the minds of a group of friends as they learn of and work to deal with a friend's suicide. But I'm not there yet. And taking on the sheer number of characters it takes to pull this off is daunting. I'm 1,000 words into this story (and please note here that I am not typically a writer who lives and dies by word count. In fact, I've never seen so many writers who do until I joined Twitter. My knowing word count is based on the fact that I've committed to doing this novel in one month - the month of November in fact - as part of National Novel Writing Month - NaNoWriMO) and already have so many places to go and things to say. I've settled on third person limited omniscent narration (including thoughts) but wonder if first person would work better. I waiver if I should delve at all into the story of the character who kills herself, or leave her to be described by her friends' actions. But I don't like that idea because it focuses on the people who are left (which I like), but not on the person who chose this tragic path...

There is a big part of me that wants to shut down all of those voices and just write away. That is how I write best most of the time - just hover hands over the keyboard and let it all come out. in fact, that's what the organizers of NaNoWriMo tell you to approach this challenge - write first, edit later. But isn't that wrong? What if I get the point of view messed up and end up having to rewrite the whole damn thing? Would that be so bad? I mean in many ways, that's what editing is for. Right?

This, what I've done right here, is an example of throwing stuff down first - I've not hit the delete button once. Nor do I intend to review the post before I publish. I'm doing it to see if I can. And if I will.